Why universe? Whyyyy?!

Are you working in my favour or conspiring against me?

Let me just start off by saying that I no longer believe in coincidence. Too much has happened to assure me that it doesn't exist. Now as a Christian, I know that I am supposed to believe that everything happens for a reason but this never stopped me from thinking about how some things are just simply insignificant. Life's little details that we never acknowledge or pay attention to like when sneezing or coughing or adjust myself in my seat, we never think about how that could change the course of their lives.

Just yesterday I was talking to a friend of mine, saying I am not attracted to anyone and that I am okay with that, I'm in a good place. someone up there must have said "yeah...we'll see about that" because it just so happens that the next day I see the guy that I spent a ridiculous amount of time trying to forget at my bus stop. Okay let's think about this for a moment; he doesn't live anywhere near me, I haven't seen him in months and he just appears at my bus stop?

I looked hideous! okay slight exaggeration, I could have looked better (especially since he just had a fresh hair cut, he was looking rather handsome). Moments before I chose to stand behind the bus stop with my hood up, looking rather moody and confused. I wanted to know why this guy was walking towards me as he was the last person I expected to see.

What I find amusing is how the universe composed itself for us to cross paths and then we just had the most mediocre conversation ever.

it's all about the timing...

At one point or another we've all wished that we had the ability to control time. 

Time is such a vital part of our daily lives, each day we wake at a certain time, eat at a certain time we are just creature that operate by time. However, occasionally time can become the enemy when you miss your bus or train even though you were just inches away. Now we can simply blame the passive, cold hearted, unsympathetic driver or we can blame time, but never ourselves. We blame the two things we have no influence over but it's in our nature to place blame; where else would we put the vile thing?

Today was one of those days I found my self willing time to just be merciful and give me a second chance and I promised to do better but obviously I'm writing this blog now so it didn't work...[insert sad face]. After class today I decided to go to the restroom which is extremely rare as I usually wait to get home or go during lesson rather than use my free time but I decided not to wait. On my way to the bus stop I see Jack (let's just call him Jack) over the past few weeks most of my efforts have gone into forgetting about Jack, I thought he left without telling me but there he was...long story short my efforts were futile, I might as well have tried to learn Mandarin instead. I stopped dead in my tracks; stupefied, my initial plan was to literally run and hide, as I started to put this plan into action, I came to my senses and decided to be rational...in other word I decided to not be such a pussy and carry on as usual. My mind was going crazy and that was the point he suddenly turned around, caught my eye for a fraction of a second before our contact was severed by an inconsiderate body but Jack was still there and I sincerely hope he didn't notice that my pace slightly quickened as I eagerly made my way towards him and the joy in my eyes when I found out that it wasn't my imagination playing cruel tricks on me.
 Prior to this moment I had fully accepted the possibility that I would never see him again but there he was, coincidence? I think not. But worse of all I didn't make the most of the opportunity I was given we just stood there and made small talk, cracked a few jokes then went our separate ways.