My type of love

Call me naive, I  know you will but I'll say it anyway.

 I believe in love. Yes, the kind in the movies and even more than that. I believe in an extravagant, flamboyant, infinite, be-spelling type of love. Don't get me wrong, it will at times bring you pain but you'll welcome it if it means you get to experience the rest. I think a lot of people miss out on this experience because they fail the simple yet challenging task of waiting. You settle because now, we are told that there is no such thing as "The Perfect Guy", you are being too picky, "Mr Right" is never coming along. So, naturally you go with the next Mike, Jake or Brian that comes your way and see that he's not so bad and simply roll with it. But why???
Sure we get lonely or sad watching our friends find their partners, we see couples littered everywhere on social networks and in schools and ever so often a holiday comes around that robs it in your face that you're still as single as single gets. The easy option is to settle, the better option is to keep going and never reduce your standards.
Don't get me wrong we all have different definitions of love, to you love might be someone who gets you chocolate bar daily without fail. My point is that whatever your standard is, stick to it. This is bound to reduce tears and heartbreak by approximately 98.7%  (roughly- not a mathematician).

 I have always loved these two quotes:

-Abi

What could have been...

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."- Marilyn Monroe

I had always looked up to Marilyn, her very essence oozes exuberance, her norm-breaking approach to life was what I found so desirable and it was probably because I lacked that attitude myself.

I'm the type of person that like's to play it safe, safe is good and it get's me by and that's the problem with safe because all it actually does is get me by, I realise that I don't take risks if I can help it, every move I make is calculated (mentally, though physically I'm a total klutz) and I live in utter fear of messing up. I absolutely hate it when things don't go according to plan, it throws me off balance. The worst part is that my life can actually be described as...mediocre.

What I understand now is that I can't expect things to just fall into place, life is designed to keep us proactive, something to mould and take control of. A great example of one of the times that I've expected things to just fall into place is when I met this guy I really liked and he liked me too, we got really close but I had no way of contacting him outside of college, I planned to get his number but I always either get scared or just expect him to ask me first simply because he's the guy, long story short he left and I'll probably never see him again. To be honest this has happened more times than I am proud to say and I am determined for it to be the last time.