What could have been...

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."- Marilyn Monroe

I had always looked up to Marilyn, her very essence oozes exuberance, her norm-breaking approach to life was what I found so desirable and it was probably because I lacked that attitude myself.

I'm the type of person that like's to play it safe, safe is good and it get's me by and that's the problem with safe because all it actually does is get me by, I realise that I don't take risks if I can help it, every move I make is calculated (mentally, though physically I'm a total klutz) and I live in utter fear of messing up. I absolutely hate it when things don't go according to plan, it throws me off balance. The worst part is that my life can actually be described as...mediocre.

What I understand now is that I can't expect things to just fall into place, life is designed to keep us proactive, something to mould and take control of. A great example of one of the times that I've expected things to just fall into place is when I met this guy I really liked and he liked me too, we got really close but I had no way of contacting him outside of college, I planned to get his number but I always either get scared or just expect him to ask me first simply because he's the guy, long story short he left and I'll probably never see him again. To be honest this has happened more times than I am proud to say and I am determined for it to be the last time.

Cities I must go before I die...

I was scrolling down Tumblr, for those who don't know what Tumblr is, it's basically like Instagram's sister who suffers from Multiple Personality Disorder; there's a dark side, a funny side, a pretty side, and so on. But mostly it is very "American". I have always been very much in love with everything American, well not the political or medical side of things but everything else seems whimsical: the music; the movies; Disney land and Hollywood are all things I have been exposed to from a very young age - those are things that everyone has been exposed to from a very young age-unless you quite literally live under a rock.

Specifically I am enticed by places like San Francisco renowned for the steep hills, the ever so majestic Golden Gate Bridge, the phenomenal architecture, I could go on but we have to get to other places I fantasise about such as New Orleans. Now this is the home of jazz, the sultry celebration of Mardi Gras, famous for it's cross-cultural and multilingualism, not to mention the food and the vintage ambience. I realise that this might not be of appeal to everyone but if you are like me, as opposed to the modernised culture constantly being chugged down our throats turning us into mindless robots, New Orleans is most definitely somewhere to ensure we visit at a point in our lives. And if it's all just fabricated by the media, at least we'll get to witness it first hand and make our own judgement and used the phrase "I saw it with my own eyes" rather than "yeah I Googled it, weren't that great."